Starting over
so hard to do.
Especially when people
lie to and about you.
Starting over
from where I use to be.
A place of happiness and serenity.
But that was taken
and now is gone.
I did nothing to deserve this
I did nothing wrong.
But others did and have
Others did many horrible things
that made me terribly sad.
But now I am mad!
I lost my friends
and the life that used to be.
And if I tell the truth
will that set me free?
Starting over
it is so hard to do.
But I am determined
to make my dreams come true.
Starting over...
Feb 27 2010 at 11:08:00 AM
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
Lost
My heart is crying
my soul dying.
and no one can hear.
The thoughts that rummage
in my head
And no one to care.
My heart is crying
my soul dying.
I can't find my way
Lost
Alone
Time is not my friend
Time just goes on
My heart crying
And no one knows
whats wrong.
Lost
Alone
Time is not my friend
Lost
Alone
Lost
Alone
Lost
Alone
Lost...
Feb 24 2010 at 04:48:00 PM
my soul dying.
and no one can hear.
The thoughts that rummage
in my head
And no one to care.
My heart is crying
my soul dying.
I can't find my way
Lost
Alone
Time is not my friend
Time just goes on
My heart crying
And no one knows
whats wrong.
Lost
Alone
Time is not my friend
Lost
Alone
Lost
Alone
Lost
Alone
Lost...
Feb 24 2010 at 04:48:00 PM
Life
Loving life again
what a concept
for me
Loving life again
letting go of the past
setting me free
Loving life again
how I have longed
for this day
Loving life again
and make it go my way
I am
Loving life again...
Dec 10 2009 at 10:32:00 AM
what a concept
for me
Loving life again
letting go of the past
setting me free
Loving life again
how I have longed
for this day
Loving life again
and make it go my way
I am
Loving life again...
Dec 10 2009 at 10:32:00 AM
Time
Time is said to heal all wounds
yet time has forgotten me.
Left to my own resources
to rewrite my own history.
As time passes by
the tears begin to fade
It's as if anger and sadness
needed a place to trade.
But if this is what it takes
to overcome what was done to me
Time will give me time
to rewrite my recent history.
And in this time
peace, serenity and joy
is what I am looking to find.
What was done to me was wrong
and no one should have to endure
Someone else's lust for greed
at your expense
is there a cure?
Not likely - not for me
I am left to rewrite my personal history....
Nov 13 2010 at 06:34:00 PM
yet time has forgotten me.
Left to my own resources
to rewrite my own history.
As time passes by
the tears begin to fade
It's as if anger and sadness
needed a place to trade.
But if this is what it takes
to overcome what was done to me
Time will give me time
to rewrite my recent history.
And in this time
peace, serenity and joy
is what I am looking to find.
What was done to me was wrong
and no one should have to endure
Someone else's lust for greed
at your expense
is there a cure?
Not likely - not for me
I am left to rewrite my personal history....
Nov 13 2010 at 06:34:00 PM
Doctor
Defamation of character
that's what you did to me.
You call yourself a doctor
making statements fraudently?
What I wonder
how much you were paid
to lie about me
The oath you took
you obviously just ignore.
You have no respect for human life.
I wished I'd known this before.
But what is done is done.
And so are you.
How many others
have you done this to?
Did you think I'd let this go
and let your lies stay
You obviously don't know me well
otherwise you'd think twice
of who you would betray
Shame on you
and your lack of ethics too.
In a court of law
this shall be done
for this battle
is already won.
Feb 17 2010 at 01:32:00
that's what you did to me.
You call yourself a doctor
making statements fraudently?
What I wonder
how much you were paid
to lie about me
The oath you took
you obviously just ignore.
You have no respect for human life.
I wished I'd known this before.
But what is done is done.
And so are you.
How many others
have you done this to?
Did you think I'd let this go
and let your lies stay
You obviously don't know me well
otherwise you'd think twice
of who you would betray
Shame on you
and your lack of ethics too.
In a court of law
this shall be done
for this battle
is already won.
Feb 17 2010 at 01:32:00
Sunset
The sun set
and darkness fell
Within the shadows
parasites dwell
in the darkness
behind a badge of blue
Who do you think
your fooling?
Me or you?
The sun sets
and madness began
I challenged you
to take a stand
I wasn't afraid
to stand up to you
I don't care that
you hide behind
a badge of blue.
The sun sets
and darkness falls
hear the madness
hear it call
I am the darkness
that will watch you fall....
Dec 20 2009 at 11:02:53 AM
and darkness fell
Within the shadows
parasites dwell
in the darkness
behind a badge of blue
Who do you think
your fooling?
Me or you?
The sun sets
and madness began
I challenged you
to take a stand
I wasn't afraid
to stand up to you
I don't care that
you hide behind
a badge of blue.
The sun sets
and darkness falls
hear the madness
hear it call
I am the darkness
that will watch you fall....
Dec 20 2009 at 11:02:53 AM
Cave
Inside a cave
is where I dwell.
Safe from harm
Safe from hell.
I stay inside
I hide away.
It seems to the only way.
For me to survive
This place of hell
In a cave where I now dwell.
I once had dreams
I once had hope
I once had life
And the ability to cope.
Then hell came and
filled me with distress
and strife.
This can really be my life?
My bed is that of fantasy
Where reality doesn't exist.
I don't want to face the truth
A truth I still resist.
But inside this cave
I am safe -
But not from the nightmares -
The nightmares that haunt me.
Late in the night
When I cry out -
Who hears me?
Who will make this right?
That's why I stay
Safe inside my cave
Where I dwell
To hide away
Hide away from hell.
Dec 03 2009 at 05:59:18 PM
is where I dwell.
Safe from harm
Safe from hell.
I stay inside
I hide away.
It seems to the only way.
For me to survive
This place of hell
In a cave where I now dwell.
I once had dreams
I once had hope
I once had life
And the ability to cope.
Then hell came and
filled me with distress
and strife.
This can really be my life?
My bed is that of fantasy
Where reality doesn't exist.
I don't want to face the truth
A truth I still resist.
But inside this cave
I am safe -
But not from the nightmares -
The nightmares that haunt me.
Late in the night
When I cry out -
Who hears me?
Who will make this right?
That's why I stay
Safe inside my cave
Where I dwell
To hide away
Hide away from hell.
Dec 03 2009 at 05:59:18 PM
Bitch
You set me up
to take a fall
You said no one would
hear the call
You set me up
for your own personal gain.
And for that I promise
to drive you insane.
Deep in the night
as you sleep
Secrets I have
secrets I keep
I shall steal away your soul
in the darkness of night
I shall bring forth monsters
to fill you full of fright.
If you don't believe me
wait and see.
What a Bitch
I will be...
Nov 13 2009 at 06:47:00 PM
to take a fall
You said no one would
hear the call
You set me up
for your own personal gain.
And for that I promise
to drive you insane.
Deep in the night
as you sleep
Secrets I have
secrets I keep
I shall steal away your soul
in the darkness of night
I shall bring forth monsters
to fill you full of fright.
If you don't believe me
wait and see.
What a Bitch
I will be...
Nov 13 2009 at 06:47:00 PM
Cowards
You hid in the shadows
once the sun went down.
Hiding in the shadows
not making a sound.
But I knew you were there
you weren't fooling me.
You tried to take my life
but it was not destined to be.
You hid in the shadows
with a badge by your side
You hid like a coward
as all cowards hide.
But life is funny
and change always comes
One day you'll will be hiding
with no where to run
With this badge by you side
how long can you hide?
From me....
Cause I'm kinda scary
and one day you will see
Just how scary
I really can be...
Nov 08 2009 at 10:00:00 AM
once the sun went down.
Hiding in the shadows
not making a sound.
But I knew you were there
you weren't fooling me.
You tried to take my life
but it was not destined to be.
You hid in the shadows
with a badge by your side
You hid like a coward
as all cowards hide.
But life is funny
and change always comes
One day you'll will be hiding
with no where to run
With this badge by you side
how long can you hide?
From me....
Cause I'm kinda scary
and one day you will see
Just how scary
I really can be...
Nov 08 2009 at 10:00:00 AM
Racist
You took my rights
away from me.
As I drowned in desperation
and dire misery.
You took away my rights
in an effort to watch me die.
You think you have gotten away with
your dirty little lie.
But you haven't
and you won't.
You said my rights
belonged to you.
How many others
have you done this to?
You think you are free
from the harm you have done
Karma will come a calling
and there is no where can you run.
You took away my rights
and for this shall you pay
Misery and desperation
shall always fill your day.
I take back my rights
that you stole from me.
And one day I will find
the happiness
that will set me free...
Oct 24 2009 at 07:33:00 PM
away from me.
As I drowned in desperation
and dire misery.
You took away my rights
in an effort to watch me die.
You think you have gotten away with
your dirty little lie.
But you haven't
and you won't.
You said my rights
belonged to you.
How many others
have you done this to?
You think you are free
from the harm you have done
Karma will come a calling
and there is no where can you run.
You took away my rights
and for this shall you pay
Misery and desperation
shall always fill your day.
I take back my rights
that you stole from me.
And one day I will find
the happiness
that will set me free...
Oct 24 2009 at 07:33:00 PM
Monster
I would kill you
within a blink of an eye
I would kill your loved ones
and make you watch them die
I would make your world chaotic
like the one you made for me
I would take great pleasure
just to watch you die slowly
Why
What have I become
what has happened to me
Darkness has crept deep inside
it hasn't set me free
Of horrors and terrors
bestowed so generously
I hide it from all and any to see
Will you be the one
who won't break free
Of the monster you made
you made of me
Darkness lies within
and darkness calls
Echos of nightmares
break the fall
As I fall away...
into darkness
Oct 17 2009 at 10:21:00 PM
within a blink of an eye
I would kill your loved ones
and make you watch them die
I would make your world chaotic
like the one you made for me
I would take great pleasure
just to watch you die slowly
Why
What have I become
what has happened to me
Darkness has crept deep inside
it hasn't set me free
Of horrors and terrors
bestowed so generously
I hide it from all and any to see
Will you be the one
who won't break free
Of the monster you made
you made of me
Darkness lies within
and darkness calls
Echos of nightmares
break the fall
As I fall away...
into darkness
Oct 17 2009 at 10:21:00 PM
The search goes on....
We are all still looking
For meaning
For purpose
For love
For perfection
For happiness
But have we looked within ourselves?
Have we seen the meaning within?
The purpose?
The love?
The perfection?
The happiness?
We always look when the door closes.
Longingly
For what will not be.
Oct 08 2009 at 09:10:00 AM
For meaning
For purpose
For love
For perfection
For happiness
But have we looked within ourselves?
Have we seen the meaning within?
The purpose?
The love?
The perfection?
The happiness?
We always look when the door closes.
Longingly
For what will not be.
Oct 08 2009 at 09:10:00 AM
Rain
Will the rain wash away the madness
Or will it continue to drown my mind
Thoughts are fleeting
Secrets worth keeping
It's all the same you know.
Wash away the madness
Let the sunshine pour through
Of secrets I keep about me and you.
Hang on or let it go....
Spin the wheel
But will anyone really know?
Let the rain wash away the madness
Let my mind be free of doubt
Let my mind be free of the madness
of you.....
Oct 06 2009 at 08:43:00 AM
Or will it continue to drown my mind
Thoughts are fleeting
Secrets worth keeping
It's all the same you know.
Wash away the madness
Let the sunshine pour through
Of secrets I keep about me and you.
Hang on or let it go....
Spin the wheel
But will anyone really know?
Let the rain wash away the madness
Let my mind be free of doubt
Let my mind be free of the madness
of you.....
Oct 06 2009 at 08:43:00 AM
Madness
The madness within my mind -
It betrays me
Deceives me
Comforts me
Conceals me
And yet, no one knows
No one can tell
Living within my head
It truely must be hell
The madness of my mind
No one knows for sure
If I am really happy
Or if there is a cure.
The madness of my mind....
Oct 04 2009 at 04:38:00 PM
It betrays me
Deceives me
Comforts me
Conceals me
And yet, no one knows
No one can tell
Living within my head
It truely must be hell
The madness of my mind
No one knows for sure
If I am really happy
Or if there is a cure.
The madness of my mind....
Oct 04 2009 at 04:38:00 PM
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